it feels like i went through this huge metamorphasis and that now im right back where i started again. just a few days ago i felt like i was finally in control again and then with the short lived disapearance of my good judgement im right back at 13 again. i feel like i should feel guilty or somthing but i dont im completely thrilled about it even though it means my lifes going to change in a big way im still excited but sad too because it means leaving behind my fairy tale existance and stepping out into the cruel world again . but im sure i can handle it because im only 17 and its time i started acting like it before its too late.